Once I started to visit clubs and off meetings a few years ago, I got a lot of lesbian and bisexual friends. And I came to think what I'd never been aware of, that is,

People are different each other.

When I was in school I didn't have friends of same sexuality. I always thought that it would be great if I have lesbian friends. While girls (heterosexual) talked about boys, I just listened to them feeling something was wrong.

Now I don't have such uncomfortable feeling. That has relationships with complex in me.
It's really a small thing, not a big deal. I knew it but I felt so sad because of the complex. Everybody's different so I should not care about it. I tend to take that people don't understand me but if I don't pay much attention to it, it's nothing. I told myself so but it didn't work.

But been told by surrounded people, I gradually came to take it as it is. It was amazing.
I had been getting unspoken message "You (I) are different" from heterosexual friends around me. When I got friends of sexual minority, the message changed to a positive one "People are different each other."

I can't stop wising that I could have lesbian and bisexual friends earlier.

I became conscious of myself liking woman when I was in preschool. I'd already felt it sad not to have person of same kind. Although only a few years passed since I got to know and made friends with lesbian and bisexual friends, my life has drastically changed.

In my young days, I never talked about a person "I love" even though people around me talked about men whom they were dating with. It was really tiresome. Now I'm have friends that I talk to. That means a lot to me.

After a few weeks I visited lesbian site for the first time, I joined a off meeting. I felt uneasy but people I met were friendly and I was happy. To have a place where I can talk about myself is extremely wonderful.