To tell the truth, I hesitated. Because, though my family knows about my sexuality, my relatives, neighborhoods and apartment landlord know nothing. If they see the show, relatives may say something not to me but to my parents, and the landlord may ask us to leave the apartment.

My parents would not be that happy about it. They never told me to live in a shadow but might change their attitude after my appearance on TV, a public place. It is difficult for majority to understand sexual minority. And my parents are majority who are closest to me.

Majority people who don't care about sexuality would never notice the fact that they are the majority. It would be when they take place in minority that majority people see themselves wielding theories.

In countries with less information or deeply rooted belief, idea of gender is strongly ground in people's mind. Difference of religion makes people of same country a foreigner.
I found out that issues about sexuality and gender are very difficult for they intimately related with conception of religion, common practice and customs.

Thinking of my parents, I could make my face obscured by a mosaic. But I didn't. I thought it more meaningful to make remarks proudly showing my face. Because there is nothing I'm ashamed of. I won't run or hide. I wanted to be responsible with what I say.

Second thing I worried is that TV producers could make up the show anyway they want.
I doubted that media people understand us. They could edit and make up the show to amuse viewers and attract high audience ratings. I was scared.

However there was a possibility that we could make the show something issue proposing. Even if they prepare scenario for the show, it's a debate show so we have chance to make it the way we want.

Thinking of risks, my decision to be on the show is unexpectedly harder than expected. But I didn't want to let the possibility pass.

Here are stories about the second recording of the show available for people who visited Bravissima! website.

The question I hate the most was from one American male who spoke fluent Japanese.

"Isn't it a sexual offence for lesbians to use women's section at public bathhouse?"

Certainly I love women. So I perve women, those in whom I have no interest at the bathhouse? No!
It would be a sexual offense if woman peek into the women's section at the bathhouse
But should it be a sexual offence if lesbian woman just goes there.

I was sad. Lesbian women are mentally men because they love women, people might think. They are just curious about sex of lesbian women. To complete my misery, they ended the debate saying that we lesbians were exclusive and not open so that we were discriminated.
Discriminated people must talk openly about their sexual habits?
You are just curious, aren't you?
It's a shame, isn't it?
Men who asked about sex had randy expression on their face. It doesn't matter where they are from, advanced countries or developing countries.

I was astonished to see lots of people, Japanese or foreigners, show accepted wisdoms only.
There are sensational, discriminative, and queer way of looking even in advanced gay countries such as USA and European countries. I felt that the issue existed in each individual and nationality doesn't matter.

We are not criminals.
We are not diseased.
We are not sex supremacists.
We are human beings.
We are living normal life.
We just want to be with someone we love.
We are just what we are.

Nothing begins if we don't go outside and cry out. We haven't been hiding but should claim louder than ever. We have to keep going on and try to make a change. I myself want to keep doing my best from now on.
I think that I delivered messages via media to people who don't have a computer or can't get informational magazines. Those might find out that they are not alone, and think that being lesbian is nothing strange. If there is just one audience who realized his or her prejudice, being on the show means a lot.
Even if the odd is low like one in 100 million, we have made at least one step. I want to think so, for the next generation.