When I received the letter from you for the
first time ever, I knew what would be written inside. I really
understand the place you are in.
The reason I participated in the TV show is not to debate
with foreigners, but to send messages to people in front of
TV, some suffering, others full of discrimination lack of
information or only with curiosity.
Lots of young homosexual people, female or male, kill themselves.
There are people who could not tolerate the discrimination
and custom and forced themselves to marry someone who they
don't really love. There also are people who think they might
be sick. That's the present situation we are in. I know nothing
will change and the public won't accept us by making statement
on TV. But we have to make a first step to change something
even if we were subjected to worse forms of discrimination.
When I was told that I could make my face obscured by a mosaic,
I thought of you, dad and mom. I thought hard. Of course I
thought of the risk.
To tell the truth, I know that my family and relatives don't
really understand or support me. They are just ignoring and
putting a lid on it. I am not blaming them. I know that my
parents and you are trying to accept me and I am grateful
for that.
I rejected putting mosaic on my face because I didn't want
to hide when making statement via media. I am running a large
website. As a representative who speaks to visitors and users
of being active and positive, I should be reliable for my
saying. I made this first step not for myself but for other
i-on staffs, site users and young people of next generation.
And of course I didn't put mosaic on because I am not ashamed
of the way I am.
I am living as a lesbian. I don't care if people talked about
it behind my back. I don' want to be discriminated and treated
as criminal, psycho or abnormal person for not being majority
and for not a heterosexual. I don't hide. I'm trying hard
to make my life better. Why should I feel ashamed? Women are
minority. Lesbian is minority among minority. I understand
what it is like better than you.
If you despise me and don't want people to think us sisters,
and if you are among conservative people and care the place
you are in, please defend yourself.
You can tell to your family-in-law that I had been cut off
so I was no longer your sister. Tell them that I was on TV
as a part time extra and I have nothing to do with homosexuality,
or whatever.
I know that I can't complain if I could not see your little
girls no more. But if they asked me, I will tell them honestly.
As I wrote before, I am not ashamed of the way I am.
It can't be helped if you get angry with me and my parents
cut me off for this appearance on TV. I won't blame you and
won't get the sulks.
Do as you want. And mom and dad can do as they want too.
As a human being, there is nothing I am ashamed of. I'm just
living comfortable and free life as myself.
PS
Please visit the web site I am running.
Bravissima!
http://www.i-on.gr.jp/bravissima/
Area of Communication Bravissima!
http://www.i-on.gr.jp/AREA/
Club Bravissima!
http://www.i-on.gr.jp/cbm/
There are people who desisted of killing oneself and got
cheerful among who visited this web sites. And I think even
a little I could help people who suffer.
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