I got some friends in my 28 years of life. The number might be low. Some might think enough. I told limited number of them other than those of same sexuality whom I met in the Internet that I'm in love with a woman at present.
They are people who I want to have a drink in private.

H is one of them. I met him when I was a student and we drunk together so many times. He has telepathy.
Sometimes he calls me from Kyushu. One time he called me just to kill his time. His phone call captures my heart because mostly he calls me when I am down.

I had been in a one-sided love with my best friend. She knows my feeling but I've been suspended for 3 years for some reason. As a friend, we have dinner together and go on a trip once in 3 months.
I took her with me wherever she was interested in and could see and talk with lots of people. Club Bravissima! was one of those places. I took her to the event at my workplace.
There I introduce her to my colleagues as a friend. That's not a lie. But I haven't come out so I can't say that she is the one I love.
One of my colleagues asked her for a date. She thought some people including me would go together so she accepted it.

Why I can't say?

If I (or she) were a man, I will tell anybody that she is the one I love. As I deeply considered about it, I was filled with jealousy and egoism and got chilled. I was extremely tired of those thoughts and I got self-reflective. It's my bad habit. My theory is that everything is my problem and has cause inside me.

Thanks for the theory, I am now an emotional person. I know that the guy who asked her for a date is an uninteresting person, so I could keep my balance. But my mind is dark.
On that particular occasion, H called me. What should I call it but telepathy?

He just said, "How have you been?"

He seemed that he read what my thinking. I was frustrated and answered, "Of course!"

For about 10-20 minutes, we exchanged the latest news about ourselves and hung up each other. After that, I cried.

I wonder whether I too have telepathy. Would I know if someone was hurt and sad somewhere? I don't want to notice my telepathy even if I have it, like H doesn't.